The Beginning

hot mess
US informal
  1. a person or thing that is spectacularly unsuccessful or disordered.
    “this outfit is definitely a hot mess

Eventually we all have to start somewhere. For most of us, it probably starts with the meshing of two people, and the scientific magic that follows… then WAM… Hello World! However, for a very small minority, I think our beginning may take a lot longer. Don’t get me wrong – everyone is born and that’s essentially the start of life… but when do we really start living? Maybe that’s what people are referring to when they talk about Old Souls/New Souls.. I don’t know.

I definitely took my time. Perhaps I was an energetic wee child, going about the world with the enthusiasm that one should. However lets be honest, I cant remember that. All I know is, for as long as I can remember, I feel as though I have been waiting for something to ‘click’ or ‘fall into place’ like the vast majority of friends that seem to have it figured out.

Suffice to say – I am still waiting. I’ve always done everything with the sort of  ‘all or nothing’ approach… (and backwards), perhaps in my quest to really feel.. I cant answer that either!

This blog is a really just a collection of my experiences. Through beating an eating disorder that possessed me for 10 years, a few harmless drug and alcohol issues, serious debt problems, (painting a great picture I know), dealing with my parents separation and the discovery that the person I had admired most in my life was a fraud, I have learnt a few things along the way that may or may not either;

a. put a few things in perspective for people

b. dissuade anyone from ever thinking that throwing up your food after a meal is a good idea (and that its harmless).

I’ve always enjoyed helping people, and I am not sure whether this blog will be of any use to anyone…but I can say that it will be enjoyable to read (and of course write) and REAL. Cold hard experienced, tried and true, maybe don’t do this, do that kind of advice about all aspects of life. And who better to give out that kind of advice than a hotmess?

Enjoy x


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