A few months ago, (OK more than a few months, maybe like 5), I signed up to run a half marathon. I have done one previously, some 9 years ago (that’s a scary thought, time flies) and had major aspirations of running a similar time. Well, as the date of the race has drawn nearly, I am under no illusion as to how unrealistic that desire is!!! I have made peace with it, now that I have finally started training, and have set a realistic goal time based on the stage I am now in life and the amount of time I have to prepare. Typical of me, I have left things a little late. No need to berate oneself, just get on and do the job. Whats that saying – why start tomorrow what you can do today and all that… Easier said than done though right?
The amount of times I have come home from work and tossed aside the idea of going for a run, even a walk because I wasn’t feeling up to it. Cut to two hours later and I am feeling even worse, a) because I haven’t gone for a run as I had planned, and b) the longer I leave in between bouts of exercise, the more my endorphin’s decrease, the worse my mood gets. One would say its a vicious cycle, all it takes to break it is just putting on those shoes or directing my car to the gym (easier said than done though again). One will never understand why we do the opposite to what we KNOW will make us feel better, work better, live better. I know binge drinking is bad, yet I still do (not as much as I used too though I must say, I have matured in my old age). I am currently halfway through reading “Life Strategies” by Dr Phil, in which he takes about a series of Life Laws. They make sense, and I think he is on to something here. Anyway, so far I identify very well with all of the Life Laws and his position on playing a victim in terms events in your life. This is relevant, as I realised a pretty big home truth the other day…. I was sitting in a kayak in the small bay of Musket Cove Island Resort, during my holiday to Fiji and it suddenly dawned on me. I have spent so much of my life looking at what other people are doing, comparing myself, berating myself for not being at a certain level/size/weight/age etc… that I have completely lacked investment into my own direction. We are all unique, our life circumstances are different, our talents, our pitfalls, why does it make sense to compare ourselves to others? I actually Googled the term the other day, and strategies to stop yourself from comparing yourself… I didn’t find anything earth shattering to be honest. So the result really was, don’t do it, everyone has their own path to follow and is responsible for the outcome. SO – I have resolved that this will be my new mantra – we will see how this goes. My other mantra is to write a blog post daily for the month of September – mainly to rid my head of the constant thought dissecting that goes on. This is why I love running, the time that it gives you to yourself to process what goes on in your head. I just wish I could remember this feeling, and the after effects, every time I drag myself out for a run! Well let this post serve as a reminder, its on the internet now, it has to be real right?!